Wha

so lots of things' been goin lately

My literally first week of studying in the univ hasn't really been the first week of studying since my faculty building's not ready yet. Soooo I've had holidays here and there.

But the truth is I'm not that excited

My boyf is in his first week of orientation and therefore we haven't talked a lot

Just barely, even

And idk it makes me kinda sad

But i dont want to really talk about it bcs it will just hurt me and i dont want it to be

But yet it's so hard yaknow

I mean

Buat kayak tetep chill gitu

Idk is this just me being silly or is this bcs of my loneliness (since some of my friends went home already and stuffs)

Idk but im just……well, idk 

I am trying to kinda put me aside 

But I totally need my friends sigh

But I also don't know who to hangout with

Oh gosh lots of things are going through my head and I don't even know what to talk about

Well basically shit i am just kinda unstable rn

Maybe bcs of new environment homesick or everything damn

Rant

Since I need someone to talk to but atm I think I don't actually have anyone I wanna to talk to so here it goes.

So I am officially a freshman!

It's been like around a week and a half and tbh I'm quite excited

But there's actually one thing I'm kinda uncomfortable about

Well, I dont know why but I feel like my parents are still treating me like a child

I know it's common since I am the only child but it's making me pretty uncomfortable.

First of all, they already accompany me for the first week of my campus orientation, and I think its ok since I saw some of my friends got the same thing goin on, but they wanna accompany me for the other week even tho not the whole week but I feel like they dont trust me enough

I know I sound wrong, I know they want to give the best for me and I know I am their only child but I am not comfortable with it. I mean come on, my other friends only have a parent come along but I have two that 'follow' me like most of the time. I know I am being such a bad daughter but I am not a child anymore

I mean usually I could have my own alone time in my room afterschool, because I would be tired and need some rest and maybe I just wanna lay down in my bed scrolling through my timeline or whatsoever but not in my first week of campus, and actually i was trying to be okay with that.

I just

Argh

But I dont wanna hurt their feeling

I dont know what to do tbh

Plus the fact that my mom wants me to go home every weekend. I dont know about that but I guess not

Am I wrong for being like this argh idk

But I just need somethin to let these thoughts out so yeah

Shiiiit man now I sound like I dont appreciate what they've done to me

I do, I totally do but I just

Just

Kinda feel uncomfortable,

I mean is it a wrong thing huh to feel uncomfortable?