ANOTHER MAINSTREAM YET DEEP THING TO TALK ABOUT OH YEAH.
So, menurut gua, this is a very important topic di kalangan remaja sekarang ini, and I'm so damn glad I brought this kinda thing to a conversation with my parents.
Well actually I wasn't really talking about this exclusively, in fact I was talking about how my friend's appearance has changed throughout time and BAM my mom just talked about this.
Jadi tadi gua lagi melakukan ritual biasa bareng mami dan papi sewaktu lebaran, well this is kinda weird but it's a family ritual anyway. Jadi setiap lebaran my parents pasti pergi ke restoran yang sama ini dan pesen menu yang sama: ketupat lebaran. Talking about family ritual, keluarga gua punya sebuah ritual lucu lainnya yaitu makan pizza hut setiap valentine's! How cute is that!
OKAY, BACK TO THE TALK.
Jadi sebelumnya gua sempet mikir, gua mau ikut pemilihan gadis sampul. I know this is kinda weird, tapi nggak tau kenapa, I have this strange feeling kalau ada chance gua bisa masuk, makanya lately I've been trying to change my appearance a bit, like to be slimmer and have a clearer skin, dan sedihnya so far it's not a great success.
Pertama tadi gua ngebahas how one of my friend has changed sejak dia ikut gadis sampul, maksudnya dari penampilannya itu loh keliatan, dan auranya cukup berubah gua bilang.
And my mom said, "oh, kalo itu mah pasti, cie. Kan kalo ikut pemilihan gitu-gituan pasti bakal dikasih pelatihan macem-macem juga kayak cara ngomong, cara jalan, gitu-gitu, pasti beda."
I couldn't agree more sih, then she started to talk about joining those kind of things without changing the way you are right now.
But then I denied, I mean seriously, look around you, society's been fucked up.
You have to do things their way to succeed.
But then mom started to be wise, dia bilang, "kenapa kamu nggak jadi diri sendiri? Kalo mau mending kamu ikut begitu tanpa ubah diri sendiri, trus liat aja, kalo misalnya belum berhasil berarti memang bukan disitu rencana Tuhan buat kamu."
And tbh, it hit me hard. So hard.
Mom also talked about how other people's opinion about you shouldn't bother you much.
It also made me think again, how I haven't been really grateful with my body, with who I am right now.
Selama ini yang gua pikirin hanya gimana caranya supaya gua bisa jadi the ideal figure everybody wants. Well, I've tried to love myself just the way I am, tapi memang gua akuin, itu butuh effort yang lebih. Dan itu susah banget banget.
I don't have enough confidence to deal with all these imperfections I have.
Tapi ya gara-gara apa yang mami bilang, gua mikir lagi, buktinya adalah adanya post ini di blog, it's a prove of my deep thinking.
So in conclusion,
Gua
Harus
Banget
Belajar
Buat
Mencintai
Diri
Sendiri.
Karna I couldn't even imagine how wonderful this world would be kalau orang-orang yang tinggal di dalamnya bisa cinta dan hormat sama dirinya sendiri. Bayangin, kalau model-model yang nantinya kita liat di majalah bukan cuma yang kurus-kurus doang, even the curvy ones or even the plump ones!
OH GOSH I SURELY NEED THAT KINDA WORLD.
A world where your weight, your face, and all your appearance that pleases only your eyes doesn't define who you really are.
Okay gosh, now I just don't know what else to say.
I just can't think of another words.
Maybe it's because I'm watchin a film right now so I kinda lose focus.
So here it is, this post will end right here, maybe soon when I'm on the mood buat talk about topic ini lagi I will.
Let's just see.
